STEP INTO THAT PLACE OF COMPLETENESS.
a man I admire offered that simple sentence at the end of an astrological report for this week. it touched on the idea of 'letting go' - a theme perhaps heard in your spiritual community, shared from a teacher or elder, said yourself about an emotional time passed, read about in this blog...
it wasn't so much the idea of us being complete as we are that my soul did a jig for. intellectually, emotionally, physically I know, feel, see that I am a complete being. what he offered, however, was a new perception on what it means to be complete in a time when we are purging (i.e. letting go) ourselves of old thoughts, patterns, behaviors that are not in alignment with Unity Consciousness.
the person(s), place(s) or thing(s) that hurt us, or that we hurt, are an integral part of us as we are in this moment and who we are as we move forward. it is not the memory, haunted as it may be, that need leave our programing... it is the perception of that memory that is ready for an upgrade. it is the shifting from guilt and blame into gratitude and non-attachment. so in a sense, it is a reprogramming with updated software for our intellect :)
a friend once said to me over dinner, your thoughts matter. I felt our bond strengthen infinitely as that moment helped me grasp the simple concept. ah-ha! the thoughts I am thinking now will eventually materialize into my physical reality. as I've noticed myself slipping into old-story-mode that invokes feelings I don't wish to feel, there's been greater awareness reminding me of my choice: to allow those feelings to expand and take me further from where I want to be (joy, ease, love), or change my thoughts to focus on what I do wish to feel (joy, ease, love).
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embarking on an adventure the likes of which normally thrills my little gypsy soul, I have instead felt myself introverted and isolated from loved ones and new ones. this experience brought up shame and guilt for not embracing my adventure in a more outgoing and excited way. I was hoping, and mayhaps expecting, myself to be feeling differently... for the journey thus far to have looked and felt differently.
I have felt lonely. whereas my practice of aloneness on similar journeys has been opportunity to build on my relationship with Self, loneliness stems from missing the other (human or otherwise). truth be told, in this now moment I am feeling less sparkly about my solo spurt, and recognizing how so much of my joy on any external journey has come from the presence of others, the presence of my expansive family community.
herein lies my opportunity to purify my thoughts...
my loneliness is indication that, in that feeling moment, I wish to be involved in community and relationship more so than I wish to be inward and reflective. neither is good or bad, right or wrong. both are essential to my process as an expanding, aware human being. I choose to love myself completely with kind thoughts, words and action through either experience .
I choose to Trust in the Universe, present past and future.
I choose to carry all that have been and all that will be a part of my journey in my Heart with unconditional Love and Appreciation.
I choose ME. I choose LIFE. I choose LOVE.
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